The Return To Sanity

by James Doesn't Exist



GK#103 c&p 2011 karaoke/jde


released October 28, 2011

"The Return To Sanity"

James Doesn't Exist is a project of Nikolai Gawin.

All music written/recorded/played/programmed and mixed by Nikolai. Recorded and mixed September 2011 in a basement in Illinois.

Album artwork and booklet by Nikolai Gawin.
Additional vocals by Alex Cochran.
Thanks to Emil Gorgioski for the logo.

3D glasses were used in the recording of this album.

This album is dedicated to Lauren Elizabeth Heavin.


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Track Name: Heavin
The Introduction
Track Name: Origin Myth
This life is gone
Yet I cannot escape
Bring me from the edge of my madness
You cannot expect me
To live like I once did
I'm sick of waiting of waiting
For my savior
Eyes around me
Watching me inside my own eyes
Just let me breathe
This is the irony of the creation of all we have
Eyes shutting down
Listen now
To my words
And live again
I am insane
Am I ready
To face the light
I say I am a king
What I really mean
Is that I cannot decide
On what to be
You forced me into this
You God damn whore
I wasn't ready to decide
I can't process what I need to understand of life these days
I can't process what I need to understand of life these days
Complications all around me
Never mind the names
I saved you
The last time
You broke the edge
All I ask in return
Just use your fucking legs
Track Name: The Foundation of Sorts
We can
Not face the end of existence
With these despondent chains
We had our one chance
To break free
I won't say goodbye
To a traitor
You raised me as your own
And left me evil
Come and rip out of your skin
It only holds you back
Then just sew it up
Everyone is judging me
They follow with their eyes
They think they're clever
Those fucking fools
Trying to outsmart me
My inclination
My horrid bias
If only you could see
Through my mind
It leaves us done and bloody
Resisting it
We ain't your fucking buddies
We're fucking this shit up
Track Name: Anarchy Evolution
The fallen and the bloody
Are at my hands
I am not what they need
Die at my hands
Praise this world
For its splendor
We fucking found what I've wished for
I don't need a fucking break
From the game
I just need to stay in first place
This is hard to comprehend
I can't understand
I Fucking Love Toast
It's just corrupt and ruined
Find something else to poison
Do this for me
Track Name: Enmity Exists
I lived to see the day
Where all my friends are dead
Victims of suicide
Liquor and Sudafed
It's time to fuck your face off
We are the best at what we do
So here's one from me to you
Stuck in a rut of normalcy
I fucking need it
Why don't you follow me
Down the fucking hole
I've got madness in my brain
This is but a symptom of the disease of man
I won't be a victim, I'll do the best I can
What's wrong for now
Tell me what's wrong
Truth misplaced
My time is of now
I will not succumb to greed
Believe me
I mean no wrong
It's just what I've become
Look for the signs
Look for the signs I left
In your own life
In your own life